Aussie-Chinese Girl Reflects on Her Med Practitioner Journey

aweoifjaweoifj I just did my long case exam yesterday morning, now anxiously a/w results to come out tomorrow, but tbh, will not be surprised if need to resit (for several reasons, both personal and external). FYI - long case is an exam style used in BPT (basic physician training) where you have 1 hr w a pt to take a comprehensive hx and o/e, 10ish min to organize your notes and thoughts, then 10ish min to present your findings, imp and issues list to the examiners, then ans their qs for another 10-20mins (or what I like to call "be executed"). @unimelb med school, the examiners are not in the room w u for the first 1 hr, but they've done their own consult for 15mins before you see them, and you're given a list of the pt rx and obs. It is by far the scariest and (in my opinion at least) easiest to fail exam in MD2. It has defs been a thundercloud over my head for the whole year which I've tried my best to ignore (maybe a bit too much...😅) but I've been slappe...

 If you're from Aus, you would know my pain of waking up at 6:30am but feeling like it's only 5:30am BECAUSE IT TECHNICALLY WAS until Sun 1/10 when we skipped from 1:59am straight to 3:00am, essentially losing 1hr of much needed beauty sleep 💀 Pair that w AFL Grand Finals long weekend in Vic and you have a miserable workforce and miserable students w morning classes/lectures/placements 😓  In keeping w this awful phenomenon, I thought I would post about our body's natural circadian rhythms, certain physiological diurnal patterns, and why the 21st c. living style w overstimulation (screens, but also mental and physical) is a nightmare for our body's natural daily cycle 😑  (yes, this is now how I spend a large portion of my free time now, yes, super nerdy, but who isn't in med, and no, don't believe any health profesh when they say they aren't nerdy, they are nerdy, just not like god tier nerdy w/in nerd popln LOL)  What is the circadian rhythm? - Body's...

 If you’ve read my very first post, you’ll know that I was struggling a hekking lot w life and med school in 2021 and was dx w adjustment disorder mid 2021 and took 1.5yr LOA before recommending 2nd year med this year. Well, it’s only since like mid year this year that I felt comfortable enough to explicitly say, yeah I had adjustment disorder, yeah I have a psych l, yeah I’m on escitalopram.  Apparently I’m a good “fake it til you make it” person cuz subject coord at Western clin school thought I was like totally ready and eager to come back from Feb when actually I was internally screaming, attending ward rounds just to hide in library or bathroom or anywhere else (no I’m not disclosing my secret hideout, everyone has to find their own in each hospital, and trust me everyone needs one) until last 2 weeks of Sem 1.  Also massive newly discovered pet peeve: don’t assume I’ve always been an extrovert and happy to start convo and be proactive and whatnot so I don’t struggle...

Dear brain, I hate the way you overthink, And the way you cause self-doubt.  I hate the monkey who drives my car,  I hate it when you don’t let go.  I hate your dumbass downward spiral,  And the way you drag me down.  I hate you so much it makes me sick.  It even makes me self-reflect.  I hate the way that you are me, I  hate it when you lie.  I hate it when you make me laugh.  Even worse when you make me cry.  I hate it when you just shut down,  And the fact you gave no signs.  But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you, Not even close, Just a tiny bit.  PS if you didn’t get the reference, bloody go and watch one of the greatest if not the greatest coming of age film ever. RIP Heath Ledger