10 Things I Hate About You

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Dear brain,

I hate the way you overthink,

And the way you cause self-doubt. 

I hate the monkey who drives my car, 

I hate it when you don’t let go. 

I hate your dumbass downward spiral, 

And the way you drag me down. 

I hate you so much it makes me sick. 

It even makes me self-reflect. 

I hate the way that you are me,

I  hate it when you lie. 

I hate it when you make me laugh. 

Even worse when you make me cry. 

I hate it when you just shut down, 

And the fact you gave no signs. 

But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you,

Not even close,

Just a tiny bit. 



PS if you didn’t get the reference, bloody go and watch one of the greatest if not the greatest coming of age film ever. RIP Heath Ledger

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